The little house two miles from the office is back on the market again. It's not in a great neighborhood, but the lot next to it is empty and I could just picture a big ol' picket fence around the whole lot of it. It's not that it's a great place, but that it has potential, and that's the part that thrills me a little. But lately maybe it's the feeling of discontent but I don't think it suddenly being for sale again is a sign. I think it's more of a warning. Sure, it would be easy to tack on a mortgage, start renovating the sucker. But then we'd be stuck, and sitting with my back to a window day after day is starting to run pale for me. And again, a lot of little things would have to happen in a particular order for me to be okay with that fateful shift in our lives.
So no. It's a no-go. Until all the little ducks line up in a row, in their proper order, I will try rather hard to repress that part of me that is really wanting it, because it would end badly. I know this, logically.
I've been putting myself out there and I can only hope that someone calls me back. It's just being really anxious and unhappy day after day and the only thing I can do is keep on truckin.
I got a Twitter account here. So follow meh? I guess?
I had a horrible dream last night that I'd accidentally hurt Rudie and when I woke up she was laying on the floor happy to see me and greet the day and I had a good squishy snuggle waiting for her. I love my little cat. I don't know where my head is sometimes when I'm asleep.
I talked with one of my dear aunties and she is going to be out in SoCal with my Mammaw August - Sept. OMG, so envious. I looked online for flights but it's like $400 a person. We could swing that, but I feel like holding onto my cash right now. Even though the ocean and the blue sky and the smell of roses by the pool is calling me....argh. It's so hard to be a grownup. But I know the minute that money gets spent on something frivolous, something happens. That's just how life is, I spose. Lame!!
This post will be written out of order, as I just remembered what I was going to post about. I remember a lot of stuff while I'm working out, you see.
